This morning I was amused by a response to a comment I had made on Facebook. Someone had posted a picture of the devil on a chair and it said "Those who call their god Allah, worship the devil." I had commented, "Unless we know the persons heart or intention when they say Allah, how do we know and how can we categorize someone when we ourselves don't want to be categorized." I had also said, I wasn't trying to debate or argue, just wanted to bring awareness to that. I got a response that was your typical closed minded response and apparently they didn't read what I said. How do we KNOW unless we KNOW their intention? Clearly anyone who worships God or even Jesus can have evil intentions. Right? So does that make them right just because of what they call their higher power? I think that awareness needs to be placed here. Like seriously. The root of all beliefs and the effects of those beliefs, is intention. I am not sure why I feel so passionate about this, or even what drove me to write this, but I think that there is enough hate in the world. It's time to evolve from that. Drop the labels and the categorizing. I may be wrong, and I am willing to pay the consequences if I am, but Love is the core of us and it needs to be brought back to the forefront of our consciousness.
It has been a while since I have written anything here. I suppose I was straddling the fence on whether this is what I am supposed to do or not. This is a good spot for me in life and everything is just getting better and better everyday as I consciously manifest my future. However, every once in a while I realize how "damaged" for lack of better words that I am. I know that healing is a process, and I thought I had made it pretty far, but after trying to take some head shots for a magazine ad, I realize that I am still healing. So what is self love and why is so hard to do it? I carry a rose quartz in my pocket everyday, I wear a rose quartz necklace and I try and "think" myself into accepting myself, but when it comes down to it, to pictures and me looking at myself...I have so much more work to do. Logically I know I have endured and survived so much. Logically I know that I am conqueror and that I have so much to offer to others. Emotionally though, I still have these scars and apparently they still bleed. So just for today I will remind myself that I am a manifestation of the Divine and that I have a purpose, and just for today, I won't be so hard on myself. We all need to love ourselves more. How can we ever really love other people if we don't love ourselves? I am deep in thought again and I know someday, someone will read this and reach out to me. My intentions are to help people heal. Whether it be emotionally, physically or spiritually. I don't see myself trying to profit from my healing abilities. I always wondered why people with all these gifts and abilities, charge people. If you want to help then isn't your motive to help? I lift my hands and my soul to Source and I ask for guidance and offer my gratitude for this day and realizing there is still so much work to do.
I am sure that I am not the only person who has experienced abandonment. The deep seeded pain that makes it hard to breathe. You try and carry on with everyday life, and something comes across your path. Be it a song, or a smell or anything, it reminds you of someone who has left you. I sit here tonight, initially thinking about my mother. How mixed my emotions are when it comes to her, but then I reflected on all those who have abandoned me. It left me with a pain in my heart that brought forth revelation. Revelation that I have survived. Through the pain and heartache. I am a survivor, and even though the hurt is so present, I must also acknowledge the growth and the pride I feel as I walk through my life. My head is high, my shoulders are straight, and I look the world in the eye. I am not afraid of the fire, because I have already burned and if you look carefully in my eyes, you will see the flames the pain stoked in my soul, to carry this wisdom to others. We are not alone. We are all one. Let me help you carry on.
When we begin awakening we often have moments of extreme highs, finally we feel one with the Divine energy. We don't feel apart from any longer, we see ourselves as the whole and life seems as it should be. However, there are still going to be days where our flesh and spirit are at battle. We WANT to do the right things, to walk in Love and Light, but our human component takes over and shadows any growth we felt we had accomplished. This is completely normal and just the fact that we can recognize the battle is growth. We can not be perfect, but if we keep moving forward and up, we will get there.
Stop what you are doing right now, and take a deep breath. Forget about everything that is troubling you and give me just a few minutes to shift your perspective. There was a time when my life was completely out of control and absolutely unmanageable. I had spiraled into the depths of my addiction and had lost all hope in ever regaining my power back. Then one day, I surrendered. I surrendered to what I call a higher power, or God. Some may call it other things, I refer to it as Spirit, my Creator and the Universe. However you decide to label this intelligence, it is there. Gently nudging and guiding us through life if we allow ourselves to be open to it. As I worked through recovery from my addiction, I began to understand how important it was, and how much power derived from meditation and mindfulness. So many of us walk around this life asleep. We go through our day without ever being aware of the only real moment. That moment is now. Now is the only time we really have. So many years can be lost during the lack of mindfulness. Even if you just take a few minutes a day, to stop the chaos in your mind, to become still and quiet and just exist. Breathe in, and breathe out. When my world seems to be falling apart, I have learned to consciously pause, and ground myself. I have made it a little over a year in recovery and I am expanding into my soul calling. I have asked Spirit to guide me and to direct my thoughts and my fingers as I type this. The beginning of stepping into your calling, is meditation and mindfulness.
I am a single mother of 3 children. I have found the path to enlightenment that has allowed me to tap into my abilities spiritually, and to overcome problems physically. I have walked where you have walked, I have cried over the things you have cried. I am a Light Worker and believe that I can be the change I want to see in this world. Please do not hesitate to contact me. I honestly want to use my abilities to help others. Prices are negotiable and all options will be weighed in order to assist you. ~Nameste